J^Luv^|ke i feel so pek chek
J^Luv^|ke suddenly all the lousy feelings can juz come at one time to attack me when i'm most vulnerable
Nicholas` well~
Nicholas` gotto
Nicholas` shikkari shite
Nicholas` ^^"
J^Luv^|ke i forgot wad is shikkari
Nicholas` erm
Nicholas` like
Nicholas` " zhen zuo
J^Luv^|ke i juz dissed kyori off
Nicholas` dissed?
J^Luv^|ke say mean thing
Nicholas` like?
J^Luv^|ke hm
J^Luv^|ke guess he said stuff i didn't like to hear
J^Luv^|ke i was rotting away
J^Luv^|ke and am frustrated cos of that
Nicholas` oic
J^Luv^|ke i'm bored, missing my bf dearly, and trying to find things to do, feeling like an outcast everywhere, realising that a bunch of gd classmates went out but i'm not invited etc
J^Luv^|ke adds up to frustrate me away
Nicholas` ic
J^Luv^|ke and he say i am wasting time sitting infrnt of the comp and shld find something to do. it's practically stating the obvious
Nicholas` dun feel this way
J^Luv^|ke so i lost my mind for a sec
J^Luv^|ke lolz`
Nicholas` think positively
J^Luv^|ke am trying to
J^Luv^|ke i haven't lost my temper for nearly a mth
J^Luv^|ke been controlling it v well
Nicholas` mi too
J^Luv^|ke boredom reallie drives ppl up the wall sometimes.
Nicholas` i get very pissed when i m feeling happy
Nicholas` n my dad juz scold me for some stupid things
J^Luv^|ke i am literally bored to tears
Nicholas` i Wanna Scold him bacK but
Nicholas` haiz
J^Luv^|ke lolz
J^Luv^|ke u noe that strong irritable and agitated feeling like as if someone say wrong thing will make u feel like killing them?
Nicholas` ya

haiz. blame no one but myself to be wasting time away like that. esp it the last few weeks before the start of my SIP. but i can't help it. i'm literally bored to tears. or mebbe it's not boredom. it's loneliness...

hates it whenever it creeps back into my life... esp when i'm most vulnerable...
to think that i called jeremy up juz now hahaha
didn't even know they went out..
tml sano is going over to ken's hse to jam..
i could've joined along cos they asked me to...
but something in me stopped me..
hate to feel left out... i wonder why.. mebbe it's coming back to me... bad memories of the past. damn how i wish i can juz erase them off like a video tape.